January 1st, 2003. Happy New Year!
Time really did pass by fast and I'm angered. No, there is no good reason. Time and I just have our issues. (The modern world is too fast paced for my lazy ass self.)
This year has been, well...
interesting. Things happened, things
didn't happen. All in all it was a good year. I remember one of my favourite episodes of Ally McBeal. John, my favourite character, explains to Ally that if you look back at the end of a year and it makes you cry, then it was a good year worth living. I enjoyed that. Although I can't say all the tears shed during these past 12 months were enjoyable, there's no denying that they were worth it, no matter how insanely stupid the reason for crying in the first place. Ironically, sometimes the eventual 'reward' for your tears would be tears again. Tears of joy, that is.
(Oh, sappy shit drives me crazy.)
At the beginning of this year I made some new friends, and got to know some better. By now it seems as though I've known them for ages. Second semester was amazing, maybe the most fun in school I ever had. From second semester all the way til summer was a great time. A lot of stuff was going on, much of which I never expected. Prom and Montreal trip for example. I never even wanted to go to prom, until one day during popcorn sales in the hall Sharon convinced me to sign up. As for Montreal, woah! I've wanted to go away with Acca ever since Grade 10. We planned it all out as a dream and somehow it happened so easily, not to mention the whole crew that came along. Both events were surprisingly wicked. There's so much more yet to be mentioned but it goes without saying that
all will be chrished memories.
Happiness aside,
the balance theory holds true at all times. Life's just a simple series of ups and downs, the higher you climb the harder you fall. When it was my time to fall, I was lucky to have friends who were right behind me. Even when I didn't approach anyone and preferred to drown in my own misery I knew they were there and I'm thankful.
After a year of turbulance I've come to understand a few more pieces of wisdom passed down to me--from friends to me specifically as well as songs that I intuitively fell in love with before. It's amazing how much I'm still learning from some words that came out of a 16 year-old a few years ago. Songs that I never understood are now starting to make sense and make me think and feel; some of them I'm excited about and others I wish I never understood. 'Universe' by Savage Garden for example, it was sad when I finally found its meaning. Nonetheless it's good to know. The last thing I learned this year was from 'Vanilla Sky' last night at Acca's house; that you should treat people carefully. (Poor Julie aka Cameron Diaz, her monologue right before she died was amazing, the one about consequences)
Like every year, I made wishes--some came true, others did not. Yes, stars have lied to me but they've also granted the best and most beautiful experiences and conversations. So I will continue to wish, and it will remain my secret (although some could take a good guess). As Mel B 'Scary Spice' said, it feels good to have your own secret, like, 'I know something you don't know, HA!'
