more unemployment blues

when i think about jobs, i get whiney with my friends. now that i'm done being whiney i am pondering the meaning of life. everytime i think about the meaning of life i think something different. tonight, i think that we are small creatures that live and die, simple. maybe we just make do, and try to enjoy ourselves.

i am just trying to justify my incompetence.

i'm like a little ant running back and forth, stressed out, but not carrying jack shit. that ant that u stare at and say wtf and then try to step on. yay! @_@

btw i miss my boyfriend. he is in super hick cottage with no cell phone reception.

sigh

More and more I am certain that the biggest mistake I made in my life is going into Waterloo Planning. WTF is planning... wtf do I do now that I am out... I feel like I need to go to school some more, I'm so stuck where I am. So frustrated, so not where I wanted to be... But then I always knew that. I just thought I'd change my mind by now.

So depressed.

I suspect that I've been someone people look down on for a while now, but either way I am looking down on myself too.