Wouldn't it be great if all institutions just blew up, and we reverted back to cave-man times? There would be no school, only practical work, and we would dance around fires and have lots of kids. That'd be great--NO SCHOOL.
I'm really pissed off at my land development class. So pissed off that I don't want to talk about it.
13.10.07
10.10.07
vendetta
Suddenly I want to tell two specific people to go fuck themselves, people I haven't thought of in a long time, perhaps a year. I am still angry, I don't see myself forgiving what happened in a long long time. There is something I think one of them deserves but I can't say, too taboo.
Angry, but I feel pretty good. Goodnight!
Angry, but I feel pretty good. Goodnight!
9.10.07
archives
I just realized that May was my best month this year, and October the worst. Look at the number of posts, interesting isn't it?
sing a song to me
Can you tell I'm troubled? I haven't posted this often for a long time. This quarter life crisis is much worse than I thought. I need someone to make things better but maybe they don't exist. It's unrealistic to hope that someone would know what to do when you are this miserable, but still I hope. I hope a Michael Buble comes and sings his song to me.
Lost
I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying
Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away
'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl
I said, baby, you're not lost
Thanks to kc ho who knew I'd listen to it over and over.
Lost
I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying
Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away
'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl
I said, baby, you're not lost
Thanks to kc ho who knew I'd listen to it over and over.
poaching season
I don't like cougars. I don't worry about them but sometimes I find it a bit ridiculous how they hit on my boyfriend more often than I get to. That just sucks, on so many levels.
8.10.07
tragedy of the commons: whores
Tragedy of the commons: Why are whores always so beat up?
A whore charges $3 for full service. When a man pays $3, would he fuck her like he does his wife? The answer is no, he would not. It is not because he is a dirt bag, or that he has more feelings for his wife than the whore. The reason is that the whore is common property for which he must not have an interest to protect. The man can have regular sex for $3, but what are the costs and benefits of him having violent, bruising, hair pulling sex for the same $3? The rational man will conclude that he will receive more enjoyment from having rough sex, but because the whore will be beat up the service quality may decline during his session tomorrow. But it's okay, it's just once a day, it won't hurt. Besides, if he doesn't get his money's worth, another man will. If service is bound to decline, its best to claim your share while you can. So the man fucks her, and fucks her up real good, making sure he gets his money's worth. Unfortunately all of her 50 customers (she's good, and cheap) come to the same decision. The whore is more and more beat up by the day, in about a week the value of her service drops below $3 and she is forced to lower her asking price. At $1.50 she is unable to afford vanities like makeup and soap. Her service level drops yet again until she dies of Hepititas. In the end, nobody gets to fuck.
A whore charges $3 for full service. When a man pays $3, would he fuck her like he does his wife? The answer is no, he would not. It is not because he is a dirt bag, or that he has more feelings for his wife than the whore. The reason is that the whore is common property for which he must not have an interest to protect. The man can have regular sex for $3, but what are the costs and benefits of him having violent, bruising, hair pulling sex for the same $3? The rational man will conclude that he will receive more enjoyment from having rough sex, but because the whore will be beat up the service quality may decline during his session tomorrow. But it's okay, it's just once a day, it won't hurt. Besides, if he doesn't get his money's worth, another man will. If service is bound to decline, its best to claim your share while you can. So the man fucks her, and fucks her up real good, making sure he gets his money's worth. Unfortunately all of her 50 customers (she's good, and cheap) come to the same decision. The whore is more and more beat up by the day, in about a week the value of her service drops below $3 and she is forced to lower her asking price. At $1.50 she is unable to afford vanities like makeup and soap. Her service level drops yet again until she dies of Hepititas. In the end, nobody gets to fuck.
futures, dreams...
Something in the back of my mind tells me I am not ready to apply to Grad school.
Something there also tells me I should. People around me tell me the same.
Lately I have developed an apetite for being a housewife though. So has a friend of mine. So this is the age when future teachers, doctors, and engineers give up their childhood ambitions for the greatest dicipline of all--home economics! I can see clearly now...
Enough sarcasm, lets change the subject.
You know how we all have a vision of our dream house?
For a long time mine consisted of a star-viewing glass ceiling, and slides built next to staircases. I now have another much simpler addition to this dream house: an elliptical in front of a big TV, possibly with a good supply of Spongebob or Chinese shows, movies would be nice too.
It's nice to know that ellipticals in front of TVs already exist everywhere... just not my house. And yes I realize that the slide and ellipitical are totally contradictory. I also assume that my glass ceiling will come with regular maintenance, ie. shit scraping.
Something there also tells me I should. People around me tell me the same.
Lately I have developed an apetite for being a housewife though. So has a friend of mine. So this is the age when future teachers, doctors, and engineers give up their childhood ambitions for the greatest dicipline of all--home economics! I can see clearly now...
Enough sarcasm, lets change the subject.
You know how we all have a vision of our dream house?
For a long time mine consisted of a star-viewing glass ceiling, and slides built next to staircases. I now have another much simpler addition to this dream house: an elliptical in front of a big TV, possibly with a good supply of Spongebob or Chinese shows, movies would be nice too.
It's nice to know that ellipticals in front of TVs already exist everywhere... just not my house. And yes I realize that the slide and ellipitical are totally contradictory. I also assume that my glass ceiling will come with regular maintenance, ie. shit scraping.
5.10.07
and it sucks more still..
Everything is going wrong this term. It really does suck. I don't know what to do. If anything I am glad that there are so many issues to deal with that I don't have time to worry about each one as much as I normally would. I'm so beyond capacity that I don't know how I should be feeling anymore.
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