MERRY CHRISTMAS!
My break so far: constant last minute shopping, last minute potluck food preparation, party, party. It's been a hectic kind of Christmas. Thank you everyone for everything!
Highlights: My welcome-home feast (forced by me of course) at KB with my family; Extremely successful suit shopping; "Tradition" small xmas get-together, lovely as always; Mo's big potluck party.
Wishes yet to be fulfilled:
1 quality family time, aside from meals... like christmas eve party!
2 clubbing with my drinking clubbing grinding buddies
3 relaxation and feeling the *true meaning of christmas*, silent night style.
4 christmas kiss! who wouldn't want love at christmas?
This break has been ass kicking so far ^__^
Merry Christmas again, and Happy New Year!
23.12.04
5.11.04
ego
...i guess i was too full of myself before, and put myself next to people who were actually above me. and now that i can't prove myself against their standards i'm looking up at where i thought i could be.
...and if actually they're not better, then i'd just have to settle with a strong sense of injustice.
i've never worked so hard in my life. but no matter how hard i work i know some things are impossible, here and now.
meanwhile, on a lighter note, darren hayes never disappoints me, ever.
in his new, darker album, called ego:
i have been contemplating letting go
of you ego
thought i'd let you know
you're getting old
it was so irritating saving face
when i fell from grace
thought you would erase
without a trace
but you stayed
but you remained
but you
its always about you
i have been quiety edging away
to keep the flames at bay
akt this puppy stay
to limit my use of
personal pronouns are the death of me
se i just said 'me'
you're an endless sea of vanity
its all for you babe
for you babe
for you
its always about you
i have been silently taking offense
and at great expense
as my feelings dent
i'm licking my scratches
it serves no purpose doesn't gratify
and you're dissatisfied
and though your belly's full
there's always more room for you babe
for you babe
for you
its always about you
...and if actually they're not better, then i'd just have to settle with a strong sense of injustice.
i've never worked so hard in my life. but no matter how hard i work i know some things are impossible, here and now.
meanwhile, on a lighter note, darren hayes never disappoints me, ever.
in his new, darker album, called ego:
i have been contemplating letting go
of you ego
thought i'd let you know
you're getting old
it was so irritating saving face
when i fell from grace
thought you would erase
without a trace
but you stayed
but you remained
but you
its always about you
i have been quiety edging away
to keep the flames at bay
akt this puppy stay
to limit my use of
personal pronouns are the death of me
se i just said 'me'
you're an endless sea of vanity
its all for you babe
for you babe
for you
its always about you
i have been silently taking offense
and at great expense
as my feelings dent
i'm licking my scratches
it serves no purpose doesn't gratify
and you're dissatisfied
and though your belly's full
there's always more room for you babe
for you babe
for you
its always about you
29.10.04
Fulfillment, Tae-Bo, and Spongebob
Could it be that my hectic schooling is brining fulfillment? Could it be??? I'm confused.
Perhaps I'm getting lost in the piles among piles of texts and scraps. And you know how exciting it is to be submerged in a pool of excess... like a pool of plastic balls. o_O?
Or an ocean of jelly beans... ^o^!
Hmm. Okay. I'm definitely not making sense.
Either way, I feel pretty damn good today. After this blog I'm gonna shower and do my 8-minute Tae-Bo workout.
TAE BO!!!
The videos are kinda ghetto. But the workout is good! If any of you want a copy just give me a shout. Or download it yourself that's equally good.
But if you want episodes of SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS definintely give me a shout! I went on a raid for spongebob episodes and I got about everything that's available on Limewire. Mmm Yeaaah.
C Ya!
Perhaps I'm getting lost in the piles among piles of texts and scraps. And you know how exciting it is to be submerged in a pool of excess... like a pool of plastic balls. o_O?
Or an ocean of jelly beans... ^o^!
Hmm. Okay. I'm definitely not making sense.
Either way, I feel pretty damn good today. After this blog I'm gonna shower and do my 8-minute Tae-Bo workout.
TAE BO!!!
The videos are kinda ghetto. But the workout is good! If any of you want a copy just give me a shout. Or download it yourself that's equally good.
But if you want episodes of SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS definintely give me a shout! I went on a raid for spongebob episodes and I got about everything that's available on Limewire. Mmm Yeaaah.
C Ya!
26.10.04
MAD lab once again.
4:39 AM. Part A of Lab 2 so-called finished. Why the hell do GIS assignments take so friggin' long? Is it because the prof is called DEADMAN? Or is it because JIZZ is too hard to take? MAYBE I'm just cursed.
You know, I brought along snacks to reward myself for when I get things done. I didn't get to eat any of it.
o_O" My brain is hurting.
No worries about me walking back in the dark, I'll be walking back in the dawn!
It's time to go now. I'll be here again in a few hours.
SHIT. >_<
The positive side to all these ES all nighters is that I sort of feel like an archi... Dreams to come true, one way or another... -_-;
Jo.
You know, I brought along snacks to reward myself for when I get things done. I didn't get to eat any of it.
o_O" My brain is hurting.
No worries about me walking back in the dark, I'll be walking back in the dawn!
It's time to go now. I'll be here again in a few hours.
SHIT. >_<
The positive side to all these ES all nighters is that I sort of feel like an archi... Dreams to come true, one way or another... -_-;
Jo.
12.10.04
going mad in the MAD lab
It's nearly 11pm.
The lab is due tomorrow.
My lab was done last week.
I'm here to help my friends.
Suddenly I have many friends.
I've come here 3 times today.
6 hours in total have been spent here.
It's late.
I'm a short female with no martial arts background.
It's dangerous to walk home alone.
I can't go home.
I can't go home.
I can't go home.
I promised to help my friends.
It's 11:00pm now.
There is 8:30am class tomorrow.
My roomate is packing up!
Wait, no.
I want to go home.
The lab is due tomorrow.
My lab was done last week.
I'm here to help my friends.
Suddenly I have many friends.
I've come here 3 times today.
6 hours in total have been spent here.
It's late.
I'm a short female with no martial arts background.
It's dangerous to walk home alone.
I can't go home.
I can't go home.
I can't go home.
I promised to help my friends.
It's 11:00pm now.
There is 8:30am class tomorrow.
My roomate is packing up!
Wait, no.
I want to go home.
27.9.04
Nightmares
I had nightmares last night. I was sleeping but I couldn't sleep. I was tired and the dreams kept me awake. Everytime I closed my eyes hallucinations of people, lights, and noises would come and pass, and I was paralyzed because I was sleeping. When I open my eyes everything would disappear and everything that remained would be still. I thought of what they say about sleeping on the wrong end of the bed, and how it would welcome ghost. Ghosts? More like oversleeping I think, or bad habits. I was so scared yesterday. It was the first time I had dreams like that. Before it was just phases of dreams with different themes... running away, death... I think i'm fucked in the head. Please don't let this mark the beginning of another string of bad dreams.
26.9.04
alcoholism, food poisoning, or just plain sick?
I decided to stay here at the Loo this weekend. It was fun! Kc, Pko, and I had 2 suites to ourselves. That also means the whole "floor" in our complex. We made food family style, and drank alocowhore style. We saw Collateral too, it's such a wicked movie I think everyone should watch it at least once.
In terms of getting work done, I did.. mm, the minimum? No way did I reach my working goal, which wasn't too high to begin with. For some reason I've been sleepy almost the entire weekend, unusually sleepy. In the daytime, during movie... Why?
1. ALCOHOL
I recall feeling perfectly well before our little party started. I recall feeling happy too. But then I also recall puking, and then regretting that I had to break my 15 year no-puke record. The next day we woke up next to eachother, taking hours to realize that we were different. Different like, stupid. We never really got smart again. ...MAYBE, I had a hangover for the entire weekend?
2. SWISS CHALET
There must have been something wrong with the Swiss Chalet we ordered. I'm not talking about the small dinky portions of sides. After dinner all three of us felt super tired. For me it kinda just stuck. I've been tired ever since. Well, I'm okay now, after sleeping the entire day off. ...Damn shady Loo Chalet...
3. SICKNESS
It's very possible that I just caught the cold from KC. Sick people sleep a lot, right? But aside from very minor symptoms, I don't think I'm sick.
My conclusion: It was probably the alcohol that made me sleep the weekend away. It was probably my fault.
Should go do something now. Anything. Grow braincells!
Sweet dreams everyone, I had nightmares...
In terms of getting work done, I did.. mm, the minimum? No way did I reach my working goal, which wasn't too high to begin with. For some reason I've been sleepy almost the entire weekend, unusually sleepy. In the daytime, during movie... Why?
1. ALCOHOL
I recall feeling perfectly well before our little party started. I recall feeling happy too. But then I also recall puking, and then regretting that I had to break my 15 year no-puke record. The next day we woke up next to eachother, taking hours to realize that we were different. Different like, stupid. We never really got smart again. ...MAYBE, I had a hangover for the entire weekend?
2. SWISS CHALET
There must have been something wrong with the Swiss Chalet we ordered. I'm not talking about the small dinky portions of sides. After dinner all three of us felt super tired. For me it kinda just stuck. I've been tired ever since. Well, I'm okay now, after sleeping the entire day off. ...Damn shady Loo Chalet...
3. SICKNESS
It's very possible that I just caught the cold from KC. Sick people sleep a lot, right? But aside from very minor symptoms, I don't think I'm sick.
My conclusion: It was probably the alcohol that made me sleep the weekend away. It was probably my fault.
Should go do something now. Anything. Grow braincells!
Sweet dreams everyone, I had nightmares...
11.9.04
Moving to WOCH, Loo
The time has come for my 2nd year in the Loo. I've spent my past week packing and now I'm in my new kick ass room, with the bunk bed taken apart, new drawer chest (from ikea of course) all set up, food in the fridge... :) I've got tomorrow to relax and have fun before classes start.
I'd post a picture but I'm too lazy. Maybe soon, or maybe never :P. Just trust that the room is spacious and everything in it is ikea merchadise... except the 11 shotglasses proudly standing on my windowsill. Wee! About half of them from the recent boston trip, and the others from previous summers. I've got a Wonderland one, ha! Such a tourist thing to do.
All this place needs is some good speakers, and it'll be next to perfect. mmm... but, no, i'm not gonna get speakers. I lived without them last year, I can live without them again!
I'd post a picture but I'm too lazy. Maybe soon, or maybe never :P. Just trust that the room is spacious and everything in it is ikea merchadise... except the 11 shotglasses proudly standing on my windowsill. Wee! About half of them from the recent boston trip, and the others from previous summers. I've got a Wonderland one, ha! Such a tourist thing to do.
All this place needs is some good speakers, and it'll be next to perfect. mmm... but, no, i'm not gonna get speakers. I lived without them last year, I can live without them again!
2.8.04
Good day. Brilliant--though not so brilliant.
I had a good day today. You know, one of those that you pause to appreciate before you go to bed. It's a nice feeling. Chick flicks tend to give you that I suppose, assuming you're a chick...
So, what happened today, why on earth am I feeling so fluffy? Let's see.. Yes, I saw a chick flick. Actually just finished, so it's not a wonder that I'm happy like this. (By the way, the movie was Love Actually. It's not bad! I half recommend it.) What else... I had a McDonald's breakfast, nothing to be too excited about. Then of course there was that 5 second stomach ache that got you scared for a moment that you were the unlucky one this time... Haha, always a small thrill to eat fast food isn't it? (Why the hell have I eaten so much McD's this week???)
After the breakfast and going back to bed (so that I could wake up mid afternoon as usual), nothing happened until the evening when I went to visit my friend. We decided we'd stop by LCBO. Damn place, they really should make them close at midnight--or never even--because you never really want alcohol until after 9. Our desperate craving led us to visit Dominion, the local 24 hour supermarket whose wine counter closes at 6 or something. Being the stupid kids that we are, we searched the drinks section and for the first time in our lives we saw de-alcoholized beer. We bought one bottle of Becks in the end, after deciding that a random, murky 0.5% vodka drink wasn't worth the money. We had a hard time opening that "beer". I ended up using a shopping cart as a bottle opener, looking and feeling like a punk criminal in the middle of a dark parking lot. It was fun. Taking a sip of it at the red light was also quite interesting. Heh..
Then we rented the chick flick.
Then it was The End. ...and now I'm here.
But since I'm done I'll be going now. Goodnight!
So, what happened today, why on earth am I feeling so fluffy? Let's see.. Yes, I saw a chick flick. Actually just finished, so it's not a wonder that I'm happy like this. (By the way, the movie was Love Actually. It's not bad! I half recommend it.) What else... I had a McDonald's breakfast, nothing to be too excited about. Then of course there was that 5 second stomach ache that got you scared for a moment that you were the unlucky one this time... Haha, always a small thrill to eat fast food isn't it? (Why the hell have I eaten so much McD's this week???)
After the breakfast and going back to bed (so that I could wake up mid afternoon as usual), nothing happened until the evening when I went to visit my friend. We decided we'd stop by LCBO. Damn place, they really should make them close at midnight--or never even--because you never really want alcohol until after 9. Our desperate craving led us to visit Dominion, the local 24 hour supermarket whose wine counter closes at 6 or something. Being the stupid kids that we are, we searched the drinks section and for the first time in our lives we saw de-alcoholized beer. We bought one bottle of Becks in the end, after deciding that a random, murky 0.5% vodka drink wasn't worth the money. We had a hard time opening that "beer". I ended up using a shopping cart as a bottle opener, looking and feeling like a punk criminal in the middle of a dark parking lot. It was fun. Taking a sip of it at the red light was also quite interesting. Heh..
Then we rented the chick flick.
Then it was The End. ...and now I'm here.
But since I'm done I'll be going now. Goodnight!
31.7.04
5:32am ramblings
It's been a long night and I've finally got enough of the Sims for today. Haven't touched that game in a little while...
Most likely I've broken my personal record for the longest lasting bad sleeping habit streak. I'm still waiting for something super memorable to happen this summer. Bad sleeping habits don't really count. :P
My aunt is coming to visit, along with her 2 little boys. They own a cottage somewhere around here, hopefully I'll get to canoe or something soon. Shoulder cramp the next day is always rewarding. Anyone heard any news about West Nile this year?
The highlight of my day was my Filet o' Fish. Yum... I wonder how they made the bun, it's so goooood.
I also bought walnuts today. My grandma had a jar of de-shelled (un-shelled, peeled, whatever) walnuts and I ate them all, so I figured I had to replenish the supply. Not surprising given my intelligence that I just picked up whole walnuts instead of de-shelled ones. It was kind of fun just sitting there cracking them. When you do it enough you actually see yourself improve, the nuts start to come out in halves instead of crumbs. I also learned that walnuts are slightly oily... ... Does anyone know how to grow a walnut tree? Maybe I should bury a nut in the backyard and see what happens. Maybe it'll rot and start to smell.
It's almost 6am now. People in the house are waking up soon. I have to go to bed now, before they tell me to. Happy eating everyone!
28.7.04
bread crust is back!
New look! ...but same old bullshit.
Thanks for visiting.
Ever just want a puppy to sit with? Yep, it's that time again. It's about time I needed a blog to write in. Some Savage Garden would be good too:
"Are you where you wanted to be,
Did you get there easily,
Did it make you sacrifice, did you make a sharp left when you should've turned right?
Are you where you wanted to be,
Did you sell off all your gold,
Did you trade it in, did you wait for love, or settle for somebody to hold?"
Darren Hayes is the greatest.
I've developed a habit of stopping to watch puppies when I pass by pet shops. Sure they smell, and puppy quality is questionable, but the little baby faces are strangely irresistable. Last time in Square One with Tong, I saw two hyper puppies stomp all over two other sleeping ones. Poor little poops. So damn cute!! ^^
Since I haven't really said much today, I'll leave you with something potentially worthwhile:
Be a good person and remember to live.
I'll be back.
Jo.
Thanks for visiting.
Ever just want a puppy to sit with? Yep, it's that time again. It's about time I needed a blog to write in. Some Savage Garden would be good too:
"Are you where you wanted to be,
Did you get there easily,
Did it make you sacrifice, did you make a sharp left when you should've turned right?
Are you where you wanted to be,
Did you sell off all your gold,
Did you trade it in, did you wait for love, or settle for somebody to hold?"
Darren Hayes is the greatest.
I've developed a habit of stopping to watch puppies when I pass by pet shops. Sure they smell, and puppy quality is questionable, but the little baby faces are strangely irresistable. Last time in Square One with Tong, I saw two hyper puppies stomp all over two other sleeping ones. Poor little poops. So damn cute!! ^^
Since I haven't really said much today, I'll leave you with something potentially worthwhile:
Be a good person and remember to live.
I'll be back.
Jo.
17.3.04
FUNISM - a new concept of urban planning based on the enjoyment of life, relaxation, and love.
Imagine a network of cities built according to themes, with monorails connecting them together, much like a themepark.
At the center is THE GARDEN:
The Garden is the central neighborhood characterized by ROMANCE... A village of single detached homes, each designed to suit the owner and to complement the surrounding environment. Mansions and other more modest dwellings are surrounded by lush greenery on one side and a beach of white sand on the other. Near the center is a simple park, with the tallest observation tower in the area.
THE OBSERVATION TOWER:
It is a large round building made of stone, with a giant platform at the top for star-gazing. The platform is covered with grass, and fenced with castle walls. It is a favourite destination for lovers and families alike. Reservations every tuesday night are available. Underneathe the platform is a hotel with a classy restaurant and bar. The restaurant extends to a small area outside, allowing people to dine in the moonlight. Also, Coasters from the bar offer star sighting tips of the month!
From the tower you can see the smaller observatory from Passion City, a peripheral town.
Imagine a network of cities built according to themes, with monorails connecting them together, much like a themepark.
At the center is THE GARDEN:
The Garden is the central neighborhood characterized by ROMANCE... A village of single detached homes, each designed to suit the owner and to complement the surrounding environment. Mansions and other more modest dwellings are surrounded by lush greenery on one side and a beach of white sand on the other. Near the center is a simple park, with the tallest observation tower in the area.
THE OBSERVATION TOWER:
It is a large round building made of stone, with a giant platform at the top for star-gazing. The platform is covered with grass, and fenced with castle walls. It is a favourite destination for lovers and families alike. Reservations every tuesday night are available. Underneathe the platform is a hotel with a classy restaurant and bar. The restaurant extends to a small area outside, allowing people to dine in the moonlight. Also, Coasters from the bar offer star sighting tips of the month!
From the tower you can see the smaller observatory from Passion City, a peripheral town.
*sigh*!!
school's ending soon... wonder what happens next... UNEMPLOYMENT!!! T_T
so what's new? i failed my test today. didn't feel like studying, so.. yeah. simple. i'm gonna drop that one, i hope. it can't get worse than that, can it?
oh, i have a *new plan*. i don't think i'll be a planner. i'm going to finish this degree, see what i can do with it, planning related for not... then go on with masters in something i'm sure about. architecture if i'm cool enough. '~'
that's not a very good plan actually but ... eee i dunno. i've thought about switching, but i wouldn't know what to switch to, except arch again. but seeing what they have to do i don't even know if i can survive something like that. now that i'm 1/4 done a degree maybe i don't wanna know...
SELF EFFICACY GOING DOWN!!! ToT
oh well. say jau say la.
school's ending soon... wonder what happens next... UNEMPLOYMENT!!! T_T
so what's new? i failed my test today. didn't feel like studying, so.. yeah. simple. i'm gonna drop that one, i hope. it can't get worse than that, can it?
oh, i have a *new plan*. i don't think i'll be a planner. i'm going to finish this degree, see what i can do with it, planning related for not... then go on with masters in something i'm sure about. architecture if i'm cool enough. '~'
that's not a very good plan actually but ... eee i dunno. i've thought about switching, but i wouldn't know what to switch to, except arch again. but seeing what they have to do i don't even know if i can survive something like that. now that i'm 1/4 done a degree maybe i don't wanna know...
SELF EFFICACY GOING DOWN!!! ToT
oh well. say jau say la.
4.3.04
University is hard.
...Harder than I thought last term anyway!
Thinking about jobs and careers makes my head hurt.
I think it's finally starting to sink in that I'm going somewhere. You know? Going somewhere in life I mean. I'm setting myself up to do certain things in the future!
It doesn't particularly excites me... makes me wonder if something is wrong.
Something probably IS wrong! grr.
Head hurts, head hurts, head hurts...
Hopefully I'm just thinking to too much. Yeah that's it :) ... ?!
Nobody make my head hurt more got it?
...Harder than I thought last term anyway!
Thinking about jobs and careers makes my head hurt.
I think it's finally starting to sink in that I'm going somewhere. You know? Going somewhere in life I mean. I'm setting myself up to do certain things in the future!
It doesn't particularly excites me... makes me wonder if something is wrong.
Something probably IS wrong! grr.
Head hurts, head hurts, head hurts...
Hopefully I'm just thinking to too much. Yeah that's it :) ... ?!
Nobody make my head hurt more got it?
4.2.04
Wow! It's been too long since I've posted. Someone's been asking for new stuff so finally I'm getting around to this. :) Now that I'm here I think I missed this blog. :p
So it's now a new term, with the first wave of midterms just starting. Last term I ended with a good average, and this term things are going well so far. Work/study habits have definitely improved.. yay! I never EVER start work early and now I'm doing that--Woohoo!
Christmas break was amazing! My aunt hidi and her family came over, we :bonded: while shopping :D and got to play with little kids (and got beat up... but that's not the point). AND chilling with friends is always wicked. Very pleasant how some things don't change.
Speaking of CHANGE-- aah! There really has been tons of change, location, level of repsonsibility, people, environment, new experiences... BUT, I haven't changed. Not that I noticed anyway, with the exception of getting better at cleaning after myself and a tad bit more hard working. Heeheehee. Like I always say tho, it's very very difficult to "screw up". You can be something other than what you intially aimed to be (or get), but to really screw up usually means death (and fail & drop out I guess)... As long as you don't die you can always keep going, get back up, etc. K sorry that doesnt seem to fit in, I thought it did. *Shrugs*
So after 4 or 5 days of emotional unrest, I've found myself a place to live for next year! With Adrienne and 3 other people we met here at the LOO. It's a nice place, check it out:
Savage Waters - Stuff of the WeeK
It's funny. When we got into this place, we're like "YEAH! Waterloo! Top school, blah blah blah.." First month you're here, you go to the UW shop and buy that stupid bear with a UW T-shirt, or spend 2 weeks picking a sweatshirt--regardless of how overpriced it is. Now, you're like "UGH, School." Not to say that Waterloo is a disappointment, nonono, but it's not as cool now. Haha! That's the way it is!
So it's now a new term, with the first wave of midterms just starting. Last term I ended with a good average, and this term things are going well so far. Work/study habits have definitely improved.. yay! I never EVER start work early and now I'm doing that--Woohoo!
Christmas break was amazing! My aunt hidi and her family came over, we :bonded: while shopping :D and got to play with little kids (and got beat up... but that's not the point). AND chilling with friends is always wicked. Very pleasant how some things don't change.
Speaking of CHANGE-- aah! There really has been tons of change, location, level of repsonsibility, people, environment, new experiences... BUT, I haven't changed. Not that I noticed anyway, with the exception of getting better at cleaning after myself and a tad bit more hard working. Heeheehee. Like I always say tho, it's very very difficult to "screw up". You can be something other than what you intially aimed to be (or get), but to really screw up usually means death (and fail & drop out I guess)... As long as you don't die you can always keep going, get back up, etc. K sorry that doesnt seem to fit in, I thought it did. *Shrugs*
So after 4 or 5 days of emotional unrest, I've found myself a place to live for next year! With Adrienne and 3 other people we met here at the LOO. It's a nice place, check it out:
Savage Waters - Stuff of the WeeK
It's funny. When we got into this place, we're like "YEAH! Waterloo! Top school, blah blah blah.." First month you're here, you go to the UW shop and buy that stupid bear with a UW T-shirt, or spend 2 weeks picking a sweatshirt--regardless of how overpriced it is. Now, you're like "UGH, School." Not to say that Waterloo is a disappointment, nonono, but it's not as cool now. Haha! That's the way it is!
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