It's almost 8:30am. I haven't been up this early for a long, long time. Actually, I didn't sleep last night. Yep, pulled an all nighter for an essay due this afternoon. It's all good, it's the last one and I'm pretty confident I've conquered that course. YEAH! Oosh!
Now that it's all printed out and put in my clipboard for later delivery, instead of sleeping I've cleaned up my room and calculated my marks and all sorts of unneccessary things. I should sleep soon. Just wanted to come on to express my relief that it's over with. Of course, I wanted to have finished it 2 days ago so that I've have time to study for Econ.. HMM... must start ASAP... its tomorrow night.
..Both PKO and I think we're going to fail this econ final. Damn it. I need a 50% in the final to pass.
8.12.03
24.11.03
SPIKE JONES was walking down the street on a winter afternoon, when suddenly CLUBSTER CHUBS comes up to him and goes 'Yo Guy, come join the hacky sack club! Here's a flier and a hacky sack as a gift to get you started. later dude!' and shoves a little package in Spike's hand. Spike stand there and goes 'uh... okaaay,' as he watches Clubster skip away. 30 seconds later a whole army of PINEAPPLE HEAD police with helmets beating sticks and all surround him chanting 'drop that hacky sack, NOW!' And Spike Jones is like 'uh.. why?' And the Pineapple head police is like 'Drop it, NOW! You're under arrest!' And Spike Jones is like 'WTF, mate? its my hacky sack,' when out of nowhere ADAM SANDLER with dreadlocks explodes out of a rock and goes 'you can put yo WEED in there,' And then Spike Jones gets TACKLED DOWN and sent to jail for weed possession, to be bailed out and beat by his FATHEAD father the next day.
The sad part is that FATHEAD beat SPIKE JONES.
Poor kid.
But if i were SPIKE JONES I'd the angriest at CLUBSTER CHUBS, regardless of whether he knew weed was in there or not.
Have a good one y'all.
The sad part is that FATHEAD beat SPIKE JONES.
Poor kid.
But if i were SPIKE JONES I'd the angriest at CLUBSTER CHUBS, regardless of whether he knew weed was in there or not.
Have a good one y'all.
12.11.03
11.11.03
There's half an hour 'til I must go to class, so lets write something here shall we?
It's I think the second weekend that I've spent here at the loo (the toilet bowl that smells more like cow shit more than mine), procrastinating entire days away and then bustin' my ass to get things done 72 hours before a due date. But it was done, HOURS before expected and it makes me very happy... so happy that I bought a two dollar cadbury chocolate bar at YELLOW--the rip off crusty convenient store across the street.
The choclate is damn good tho, everyone should try it. It's caled BURNT ALMOND, and comes in a rather simple package. Nothing spiffy. Just plain old goodness. Psst: it's dark chocolate!!!
So the cost of staying here this weekend was missing Matrix Revolutions on Saturday night with some friends. Really wish I was there. But I think I'll watch it soon, with my suite and possibly some other loo-buddies. The plan was for tonight, but we can't find tickets, and we can't find a theatre. MOAHAHA! Maybe back home...
Did anyone catch the lunar eclipse the other night? That was pretty wicked. It's like time fast-forwarded itself and the sun never came up for a whole entire rotation of the earth or whatever that makes a moon cycle. (As if time doesn't go fast enough already...)
Time isn't constant... it goes FAST, and the S L O W... and back again. Sometimes faster, and faster, and faster, and faster, and faster... until you suddenly just DIE--of old age... or of insanity, that would be a valid explanation also. Hehe, just kidding. My point is that time is relative--it's TRUE! Doesn't anyone know any physics these days? Yeah you know it engies!
For your entertainment, here's a chant...
MEGA MEGA MEGA! HO HO HO! MEGA MEGA MEGA! HO HO HO! MEGA! HO! MEGA! HO! MEGA MEGA MEGA! HO HO HO!!!
It parallels the WaterWaterWater, LooLooLoo chant. Fun fun... nor not.
...Mega Ho is actually the name of a girl who actually EXISTS, somewhere in the Toronto area. If you ever meet her, let me know how it goes.
Jigga Lo is as far as I know fictional but if you meet one, let me know too.
It's so much fun wasting time. I wish I get paid for it.
So I've finally found out what PLANNERS do! After all this time.. PLANNERS ARE PROJECT MANAGERS FOR DEVELOPMENTS! That's cool. Sounds cool anyway. Right? Of course.
Here's a link: http://www2.gamesville.lycos.com/html_poke/poke_penguin.htm Tell me how it goes. Enjoy!
Do you think there's enough BS here for today? I could actually go on for another 10 or 20 minutes til class time, BUT I'm guessing I should leave this alone, or no one will ever read it.
SO--> Good day, all my good friends. Make a good wish, that you may control TIME... so you may live forever... or DIE suddenly (of old age) cuz you don't know how to control properly. Teehee! I'M KIDDING!!!
It's I think the second weekend that I've spent here at the loo (the toilet bowl that smells more like cow shit more than mine), procrastinating entire days away and then bustin' my ass to get things done 72 hours before a due date. But it was done, HOURS before expected and it makes me very happy... so happy that I bought a two dollar cadbury chocolate bar at YELLOW--the rip off crusty convenient store across the street.
The choclate is damn good tho, everyone should try it. It's caled BURNT ALMOND, and comes in a rather simple package. Nothing spiffy. Just plain old goodness. Psst: it's dark chocolate!!!
So the cost of staying here this weekend was missing Matrix Revolutions on Saturday night with some friends. Really wish I was there. But I think I'll watch it soon, with my suite and possibly some other loo-buddies. The plan was for tonight, but we can't find tickets, and we can't find a theatre. MOAHAHA! Maybe back home...
Did anyone catch the lunar eclipse the other night? That was pretty wicked. It's like time fast-forwarded itself and the sun never came up for a whole entire rotation of the earth or whatever that makes a moon cycle. (As if time doesn't go fast enough already...)
Time isn't constant... it goes FAST, and the S L O W... and back again. Sometimes faster, and faster, and faster, and faster, and faster... until you suddenly just DIE--of old age... or of insanity, that would be a valid explanation also. Hehe, just kidding. My point is that time is relative--it's TRUE! Doesn't anyone know any physics these days? Yeah you know it engies!
For your entertainment, here's a chant...
MEGA MEGA MEGA! HO HO HO! MEGA MEGA MEGA! HO HO HO! MEGA! HO! MEGA! HO! MEGA MEGA MEGA! HO HO HO!!!
It parallels the WaterWaterWater, LooLooLoo chant. Fun fun... nor not.
...Mega Ho is actually the name of a girl who actually EXISTS, somewhere in the Toronto area. If you ever meet her, let me know how it goes.
Jigga Lo is as far as I know fictional but if you meet one, let me know too.
It's so much fun wasting time. I wish I get paid for it.
So I've finally found out what PLANNERS do! After all this time.. PLANNERS ARE PROJECT MANAGERS FOR DEVELOPMENTS! That's cool. Sounds cool anyway. Right? Of course.
Here's a link: http://www2.gamesville.lycos.com/html_poke/poke_penguin.htm Tell me how it goes. Enjoy!
Do you think there's enough BS here for today? I could actually go on for another 10 or 20 minutes til class time, BUT I'm guessing I should leave this alone, or no one will ever read it.
SO--> Good day, all my good friends. Make a good wish, that you may control TIME... so you may live forever... or DIE suddenly (of old age) cuz you don't know how to control properly. Teehee! I'M KIDDING!!!
3.11.03
Damn, I wrote something in here last week and somehow got lost. Sucks. So I'm here again, by request of Terence. Sorry I haven't been keeping my promise of writing often.
It's becoming more and more fun at rez, at the Loo... where we all go pee and the water smells. Some pretty hilarious times with new friends, and when I figure out how to post pictures again I'll remember to do that. We already know some deen-por's and what not. And we get fed! Our neighbors make lots of yummy food, and we get to eat. Wow, so amazing.
Congrats to me, I'm doing relatively well in school. Everyone is working hard at it too so good job everyone! Keep it up if your midterms aren't done yet. They will be someday!!!
It's becoming more and more fun at rez, at the Loo... where we all go pee and the water smells. Some pretty hilarious times with new friends, and when I figure out how to post pictures again I'll remember to do that. We already know some deen-por's and what not. And we get fed! Our neighbors make lots of yummy food, and we get to eat. Wow, so amazing.
Congrats to me, I'm doing relatively well in school. Everyone is working hard at it too so good job everyone! Keep it up if your midterms aren't done yet. They will be someday!!!
10.9.03
It's been a while since I've posted. I'm now at Waterloo, rez, it's okay. Today might be my 'worse' day here so far. I'm sick--either that or allergies, I really don't know. OSAP isn't going too smoothly but I'm sure it'll get figured out okay. And I've gotta read! Woohoo!!!
Yeah, I'm still not sure about this PLANNING thing. But I'm here and looking forward to liking it soon. Can't say that I know anything about it yet, so... yep!
It's fun living here at rez. My room isn't big, the suite isn't big, but it's cool. :) Anyone wanna come for a visit? Can even stay over cuz I got a sleeping bag here now, haha. I'm slowly getting to know the people around, it's pretty good. Maybe I'll post one or two pictures of the place on here next time.
Hopefully there'll be more posts, regularly, to track how everything's going. It should be interesting to read later on. (Oh damn, reading.) I feel sick so I might take a nap then read, or just read... We'll see how it goes.
My rez # is 519-725-9380 if anyone wants to call, I get all of wednesdays off except 7-11 I'll be out for a lecture. All other nights are good... and mornings before 11. Nobody's gonna remember this but that's okay. My new cell's 647-828-0557 if you don't already know this.
I'll remember to post often!
Yeah, I'm still not sure about this PLANNING thing. But I'm here and looking forward to liking it soon. Can't say that I know anything about it yet, so... yep!
It's fun living here at rez. My room isn't big, the suite isn't big, but it's cool. :) Anyone wanna come for a visit? Can even stay over cuz I got a sleeping bag here now, haha. I'm slowly getting to know the people around, it's pretty good. Maybe I'll post one or two pictures of the place on here next time.
Hopefully there'll be more posts, regularly, to track how everything's going. It should be interesting to read later on. (Oh damn, reading.) I feel sick so I might take a nap then read, or just read... We'll see how it goes.
My rez # is 519-725-9380 if anyone wants to call, I get all of wednesdays off except 7-11 I'll be out for a lecture. All other nights are good... and mornings before 11. Nobody's gonna remember this but that's okay. My new cell's 647-828-0557 if you don't already know this.
I'll remember to post often!
31.7.03
It's already the end of July, another month and university will be coming my way---but the summer fun still hasn't started. Well, it's about to!!! Lately I've been busy, shopping for all sorts of things I'll be needing for REZ. It seems a bit early to put such intense effort in this, but recent arrangement says that I'M GOING TO CALIFORNIA FOR 3 WEEKS!
I'll be going with my mom and sister, to live with my designer aunt Hidi and her family including the kids (Valerio and Alessio). Can't wait!!! Malibu beach will be 20 minutes drive away from where I'll be staying... expect a good tan when I come back. Expect pictures! pictures pictures pictures!!! To those of you familiar with the latest RHCP album, I'll be bringing that to the beach... ZEPHYR, TERENCE! And venice queen during sunset. Ohhh yeah... So i'll be going to LA, with a weekend at Vegas. No I will not gamble. I'm going to see magic tho. Hehe. Childhood, so good.
The downside to the trip.. is I'll be missing you guys, my friends... I'll be leaving on the 7th so maybe I'll try for a get together before I leave... While I'm gone tho, hopefully I'll get some nettime, I probably will.. and I'll keep you posted!
For the past months, even year, my mind and emotions have been pretty dull. It's one of those things that come with age. (I hate how it doesn't seem like I can truly FEEL anymore...) Age is something I've been occassionally thinking about. The older we get, the more diverse our personalities become and our growth rates are becoming significantly different. Our lives are also becoming very different. There are some of us who've become quite mature, some childish and fun, some adventurous, some still searching for themselves... some down to earth, some prissy, some indifferent... Sometimes it's a bit hard to relate on the same level as before, but then again there's less of a need to do that. I don't know if it's supposed to happen, but I feel that I'm slowly retarding--emotionally, intellectually, and physically actually. I don't laugh, cry, or panic as hard anymore. As indifferent as I'm feeling, I do feel sad about it. But no crying. My conclusion? The state of childhood and teenage is gold. It's a very personal take on life but a good piece of advice I'd offer to anyone is... Don't be too eager to get older, you'll get there. You're here now and you'll never be here again.
Last note, any requests for purchases?
I'll be going with my mom and sister, to live with my designer aunt Hidi and her family including the kids (Valerio and Alessio). Can't wait!!! Malibu beach will be 20 minutes drive away from where I'll be staying... expect a good tan when I come back. Expect pictures! pictures pictures pictures!!! To those of you familiar with the latest RHCP album, I'll be bringing that to the beach... ZEPHYR, TERENCE! And venice queen during sunset. Ohhh yeah... So i'll be going to LA, with a weekend at Vegas. No I will not gamble. I'm going to see magic tho. Hehe. Childhood, so good.
The downside to the trip.. is I'll be missing you guys, my friends... I'll be leaving on the 7th so maybe I'll try for a get together before I leave... While I'm gone tho, hopefully I'll get some nettime, I probably will.. and I'll keep you posted!
For the past months, even year, my mind and emotions have been pretty dull. It's one of those things that come with age. (I hate how it doesn't seem like I can truly FEEL anymore...) Age is something I've been occassionally thinking about. The older we get, the more diverse our personalities become and our growth rates are becoming significantly different. Our lives are also becoming very different. There are some of us who've become quite mature, some childish and fun, some adventurous, some still searching for themselves... some down to earth, some prissy, some indifferent... Sometimes it's a bit hard to relate on the same level as before, but then again there's less of a need to do that. I don't know if it's supposed to happen, but I feel that I'm slowly retarding--emotionally, intellectually, and physically actually. I don't laugh, cry, or panic as hard anymore. As indifferent as I'm feeling, I do feel sad about it. But no crying. My conclusion? The state of childhood and teenage is gold. It's a very personal take on life but a good piece of advice I'd offer to anyone is... Don't be too eager to get older, you'll get there. You're here now and you'll never be here again.
Last note, any requests for purchases?
8.7.03
Wow, blogger has a new look. Makes me want to change this template but I don't know how. I actually wrote a new blog, but I think I forgot to publish it so now I'll write a new one.
Course selection is done. I only have 16 hours of class per week, and MONDAYS OFF! That made me feel a little useless but once the work starts I'll like it. Yep, so longer stay-home time. If I'm not busy I could even visit people. Hehehe. We'll see.
As an elective I'm taking this microeconomics course with a prof named Larry Smith. Heard he's inspiring so I'm checking it out. Same class as Poksee PKO and Acca, hehe! That's the only lecture I have on Wednesday.
So that's it. My update on what's going on. Yay Miriam commented!
Course selection is done. I only have 16 hours of class per week, and MONDAYS OFF! That made me feel a little useless but once the work starts I'll like it. Yep, so longer stay-home time. If I'm not busy I could even visit people. Hehehe. We'll see.
As an elective I'm taking this microeconomics course with a prof named Larry Smith. Heard he's inspiring so I'm checking it out. Same class as Poksee PKO and Acca, hehe! That's the only lecture I have on Wednesday.
So that's it. My update on what's going on. Yay Miriam commented!
7.7.03
Ever catch yourself over-dramatizing everything, stressing out, and having anxiety attacks for no reason? It's not pleasant. I feel like an idiot - kind of. It's probably anxiety about the coming of university, how much more important my decisions will be compared to highschool days. But then, it's not. Not as traumatic as I tend to think it is anyway.
It's been a while since I had posted, and even longer since anyone had submitted a comment. Maybe I'll try to get these online things more exciting again.
So highschool is over. Perhaps it's because half of highschool ended in grade 12 that I don't feel any different by the end of OAC. I've been told that it will kick in, but no, I don't feel it. Maybe it's because I had so little classes and skipped so much prior to exams that I was living a summer life already. Hehehe. No, I won't skip classes in university. I don't plan to anyway.
Course selection begins tomorrow on a program called Quest. Is that the same as UT? I recall the trauma... Hopefully that doesn't happen with Waterloo since it's a smaller school.
I'll be commenting on more interesting topics next time. Have a great day!
It's been a while since I had posted, and even longer since anyone had submitted a comment. Maybe I'll try to get these online things more exciting again.
So highschool is over. Perhaps it's because half of highschool ended in grade 12 that I don't feel any different by the end of OAC. I've been told that it will kick in, but no, I don't feel it. Maybe it's because I had so little classes and skipped so much prior to exams that I was living a summer life already. Hehehe. No, I won't skip classes in university. I don't plan to anyway.
Course selection begins tomorrow on a program called Quest. Is that the same as UT? I recall the trauma... Hopefully that doesn't happen with Waterloo since it's a smaller school.
I'll be commenting on more interesting topics next time. Have a great day!
13.6.03
I've made up my mind.
I'M GOING TO PLANNING! Who knows where it will bring me, who knows what will happen... but that's the reason why I chose it. I'll be needing a lot of emotional support...
Good luck everyone and congratulations on finishing another school year! AND surviving Friday the 13th!
In my 36 hours without sleep marathon filled with confusion and anxiety, I took a break and went to see COLDPLAY! It was brilliant. So vibin! Had lots of fun it was absolutely awesome. When they played Yellow I was like ..... oooooommmmmmgggggggggggggg.........
Anyway :) good day to you all.
A piece of random advice: Take things one day at a time. Heavenly Hash icecream is awesome.
I'M GOING TO PLANNING! Who knows where it will bring me, who knows what will happen... but that's the reason why I chose it. I'll be needing a lot of emotional support...
Good luck everyone and congratulations on finishing another school year! AND surviving Friday the 13th!
In my 36 hours without sleep marathon filled with confusion and anxiety, I took a break and went to see COLDPLAY! It was brilliant. So vibin! Had lots of fun it was absolutely awesome. When they played Yellow I was like ..... oooooommmmmmgggggggggggggg.........
Anyway :) good day to you all.
A piece of random advice: Take things one day at a time. Heavenly Hash icecream is awesome.
10.6.03
Wow. I'm way past my deadline for DECIDING where to go. ugh...
I think I am leaning towards Ry... but then again it's not like I know enough to know if i like or dislike planning. According to Christine, it's not as blah as it sounds when u go there and see the facilities with the computer lab and the model building and stuff. I don't know about the content tho, cuz a lot of stuff DOESN'T need facilities. I know its a good program, its just a matter of if I'll like it or not. Aiya...
I'm writing this in World Issues, with Poksee here beside me... Taylor's not here today and we don't feel like working. Who feels like working nowadays anyway? Exams are coming and I'm completely oblivious to it. There's been too much worrying.
okokok.. i talked to my cousin, who just gradded from architecture ryerson this year. She says that the interior design program is good, and she says I can't worry about the money. Of course she's the kind who doesn't care how much she makes (obviously i am... moral or not). But I do believe her in the sense that you have to like it, and even if you do she says you'll still wonder why you didn't pick the other one. That's just the way it is. Anyway that doesn't help me. She did tell me tho, that her friend who's out of interior design now makes low 30,000.. that's coming out, which is much more than I thought. According to my arguements before, that should solve my concerns and "barriers" from me going there. I wonder if that's true or if she just got lucky. Seriously if i don't make 40,000 in 10 years of work I'd be pretty pissed off...
OK, poksee just said that's 40,000 is BAD. actuaries come out making that much. Damn i feel like i'm destined to be poor... i sense it... BOO!!!
Yeah, 40,000 is pretty bad if u're just surviving on your own.. or not.. i don't know, i dont' know about this stuff. its decent but i think i have the potential to do much better.
i think i'll go do other stuff now :"(
too bad i didn't think of money when i as applying ot universities... now i'm stuck with low paying choices...
BUT EITHER WAY, IN INTERIOR DESIGN OR PLANNING I HAVE A FEW CONNECTIONS... IF I'M DECENT I COULD PROBABLY GET MYSELF HOOKED UP WITH A JOB IN CALIFORNIA... but whether i'll get there is a completely different story and very very far off...
awwwwwwww i was so looking forward to co-op travelling and exchange to england and living at rez... if i go to planning but i'm so unsure about planning and i basically have today to decide i don't think i'll end up picking it.........
sharon thinks (she didn't tell me but i know).. actually no nevermind. sharon says 'i think u already made up your mind, just accept it and move on!!!'
whatever sharon. i dot'n know.
bibi
I think I am leaning towards Ry... but then again it's not like I know enough to know if i like or dislike planning. According to Christine, it's not as blah as it sounds when u go there and see the facilities with the computer lab and the model building and stuff. I don't know about the content tho, cuz a lot of stuff DOESN'T need facilities. I know its a good program, its just a matter of if I'll like it or not. Aiya...
I'm writing this in World Issues, with Poksee here beside me... Taylor's not here today and we don't feel like working. Who feels like working nowadays anyway? Exams are coming and I'm completely oblivious to it. There's been too much worrying.
okokok.. i talked to my cousin, who just gradded from architecture ryerson this year. She says that the interior design program is good, and she says I can't worry about the money. Of course she's the kind who doesn't care how much she makes (obviously i am... moral or not). But I do believe her in the sense that you have to like it, and even if you do she says you'll still wonder why you didn't pick the other one. That's just the way it is. Anyway that doesn't help me. She did tell me tho, that her friend who's out of interior design now makes low 30,000.. that's coming out, which is much more than I thought. According to my arguements before, that should solve my concerns and "barriers" from me going there. I wonder if that's true or if she just got lucky. Seriously if i don't make 40,000 in 10 years of work I'd be pretty pissed off...
OK, poksee just said that's 40,000 is BAD. actuaries come out making that much. Damn i feel like i'm destined to be poor... i sense it... BOO!!!
Yeah, 40,000 is pretty bad if u're just surviving on your own.. or not.. i don't know, i dont' know about this stuff. its decent but i think i have the potential to do much better.
i think i'll go do other stuff now :"(
too bad i didn't think of money when i as applying ot universities... now i'm stuck with low paying choices...
BUT EITHER WAY, IN INTERIOR DESIGN OR PLANNING I HAVE A FEW CONNECTIONS... IF I'M DECENT I COULD PROBABLY GET MYSELF HOOKED UP WITH A JOB IN CALIFORNIA... but whether i'll get there is a completely different story and very very far off...
awwwwwwww i was so looking forward to co-op travelling and exchange to england and living at rez... if i go to planning but i'm so unsure about planning and i basically have today to decide i don't think i'll end up picking it.........
sharon thinks (she didn't tell me but i know).. actually no nevermind. sharon says 'i think u already made up your mind, just accept it and move on!!!'
whatever sharon. i dot'n know.
bibi
3.6.03
I'm screwed.
I didn't get into waterloo architecture--no surprise.
What surprised me was that they offered me Planning, with CO-OP!
Now I know, I was all hyped up about the moeny last post, and made up my mind that I would go to Planning instead of Interior Design given the opportunity. But now that it's come true, I'm thinking much harder.
Will it be the "passion"? or the money?
>.<
I didn't get into waterloo architecture--no surprise.
What surprised me was that they offered me Planning, with CO-OP!
Now I know, I was all hyped up about the moeny last post, and made up my mind that I would go to Planning instead of Interior Design given the opportunity. But now that it's come true, I'm thinking much harder.
Will it be the "passion"? or the money?
>.<
2.6.03
wow its sooo nice outside these days, i'd prefer this weather over full blown summer hotness anyday! walks around the neighborhood are the wickedest, eh?
i've been thinking. if waterloo rejects me for architecture and offers me planning--I'M GOING TO TAKE IT. i hope they're offering planning.. they did every year but they're not sure about this year cuz of the double cohort.
oh and updates about who took me and who didn't:
1st choice--Waterloo Architecture:
--obviously still waiting, extremely anxiously... especially now that Acca's going there and if i got into Architecture our study/work terms match perfectly! aaaah... >.<
2nd choice--Ryerson Interior Design:
--accepted offer already :) good scholarship too. AND katie from a/g class is going there too so i'll have a friend if i end up going
3rd choice--OCAD Industrial Design
---rejected!! without any other offers at that! so stupid i hate ocad they're missing out and they're so friggin rude and blah. i didn't wanna get in there anyway. BOO! no, really i don't care. and yeah, terence did tell me ocad was up to no good.
4th choice--UT Civil Engineering:
--got accepted today, with scholarship amounts that don't add up. whatever, i'm not going no matter how tong much tries to persuade me!
i've been thinking. if waterloo rejects me for architecture and offers me planning--I'M GOING TO TAKE IT. i hope they're offering planning.. they did every year but they're not sure about this year cuz of the double cohort.
oh and updates about who took me and who didn't:
1st choice--Waterloo Architecture:
--obviously still waiting, extremely anxiously... especially now that Acca's going there and if i got into Architecture our study/work terms match perfectly! aaaah... >.<
2nd choice--Ryerson Interior Design:
--accepted offer already :) good scholarship too. AND katie from a/g class is going there too so i'll have a friend if i end up going
3rd choice--OCAD Industrial Design
---rejected!! without any other offers at that! so stupid i hate ocad they're missing out and they're so friggin rude and blah. i didn't wanna get in there anyway. BOO! no, really i don't care. and yeah, terence did tell me ocad was up to no good.
4th choice--UT Civil Engineering:
--got accepted today, with scholarship amounts that don't add up. whatever, i'm not going no matter how tong much tries to persuade me!
25.5.03
A fear is coming over me...
I am thinking about paying for university... The more I ask--without getting answers--and guess, the more I fear my family doesn't have the money to support it. Espcially if I end up going to Waterloo, which is out of town and takes extra years.
Of course I needn't worry about paying for Waterloo now, since as I am waiting for an acceptance I am also waiting for a rejection.
It's just that I'm frustrated and disappointed at how these things are kept from me (also other children I know). I feel unsafe: everytime I spend on any form of luxury I am reminded of the possiblity that I can't afford to. Not knowing sucks.
Yes, there's OSAP. I don't like the idea of owing so much money though, that sucks too. Big time. When is it due anyway? I need it.
If I get into Waterloo Architecture, I'll go. I feel like it'll give me a much better future than Ryerson. Interior designers were never known to make a lot of money, whereas architects tend to be better off. That's right, I want to be rich. Unfortunately I'm not willing to go into act. sci. ;) If I don't get into Waterloo, I'm going to Ryerson and gladly so. The whole money worry would diminish too. Living at home really simplifies things a lot.
I know this is not for me to worry about, the money. But depending on the situation it might eventually become my problem, so I feel every right to be concerned. Anyway, it's not like worrying can solve problems. So, end of discussion.
But speaking of the future I can't help but think of life in general. I was talking to Mo about this just now, and I have this ideal image in my head that I'm looking forward to. It goes something like this:
I'm in my mid 20's (this is werid because it's not far away), at a point when my career is taking off and looking bright, everyone I love is happy, and I've just gotten married in recent months. I'm settled yet youthful, everything's going right and I can take time to enjoy it.. Waking up refreshed and content in the morning, and then going off on my daily routine, coming home... Oh and this 'home' is nice too, comfortable and relatively 'well off'...
How nice is that?! I don't think it will happen, not exactly that way anyway. What it all boils down to is that... I DON'T WANT TO BE A *SPINSTER*! (thank you Acca for the new vocab)
This reminds me of my Ally McBeal days. When it was still running I used to catch it every week, I absolutely loved it. It was limehill (insane) and in its own way sappy, I could actually relate quite well, haha.. Aww, I miss that show. I forgot the character's name.. it was the weird little man who stutters and whistles his nose.. he was my favourite.
I'd hate to be a poor spinster who gets mugged on the street on my 36th birthday.
I am thinking about paying for university... The more I ask--without getting answers--and guess, the more I fear my family doesn't have the money to support it. Espcially if I end up going to Waterloo, which is out of town and takes extra years.
Of course I needn't worry about paying for Waterloo now, since as I am waiting for an acceptance I am also waiting for a rejection.
It's just that I'm frustrated and disappointed at how these things are kept from me (also other children I know). I feel unsafe: everytime I spend on any form of luxury I am reminded of the possiblity that I can't afford to. Not knowing sucks.
Yes, there's OSAP. I don't like the idea of owing so much money though, that sucks too. Big time. When is it due anyway? I need it.
If I get into Waterloo Architecture, I'll go. I feel like it'll give me a much better future than Ryerson. Interior designers were never known to make a lot of money, whereas architects tend to be better off. That's right, I want to be rich. Unfortunately I'm not willing to go into act. sci. ;) If I don't get into Waterloo, I'm going to Ryerson and gladly so. The whole money worry would diminish too. Living at home really simplifies things a lot.
I know this is not for me to worry about, the money. But depending on the situation it might eventually become my problem, so I feel every right to be concerned. Anyway, it's not like worrying can solve problems. So, end of discussion.
But speaking of the future I can't help but think of life in general. I was talking to Mo about this just now, and I have this ideal image in my head that I'm looking forward to. It goes something like this:
I'm in my mid 20's (this is werid because it's not far away), at a point when my career is taking off and looking bright, everyone I love is happy, and I've just gotten married in recent months. I'm settled yet youthful, everything's going right and I can take time to enjoy it.. Waking up refreshed and content in the morning, and then going off on my daily routine, coming home... Oh and this 'home' is nice too, comfortable and relatively 'well off'...
How nice is that?! I don't think it will happen, not exactly that way anyway. What it all boils down to is that... I DON'T WANT TO BE A *SPINSTER*! (thank you Acca for the new vocab)
This reminds me of my Ally McBeal days. When it was still running I used to catch it every week, I absolutely loved it. It was limehill (insane) and in its own way sappy, I could actually relate quite well, haha.. Aww, I miss that show. I forgot the character's name.. it was the weird little man who stutters and whistles his nose.. he was my favourite.
I'd hate to be a poor spinster who gets mugged on the street on my 36th birthday.
22.5.03
19.5.03
Wow, my challenge week is OVER! yes, OVER!!! it feels soooo damn good.
1. I got braces! They were way funky at first but its the 5th day I have it on and I'm well adjusted. Now that I can chew almost properly tho, it gets a tad bit irritating to have certain "restrictions" and I can't eat chicken off the bones. I didn't think braces were that weak. Luckily I'm not hooked on gum at all.
2. World Issues ISU is DONE! To my surprise Taylor liked the bulletin board! I hope I get a good mark on it.
3. 2 consecutive days of algeo tests are over, without good results but they're over none the less and I'm glad it's off my shoulders. I must work harder and stop procrastinating.
4. Never before have I complained about Howard's English on here, but yes it is complete garbage. I skipped FOUR DAYS last week. Only one of those days was a legit absence (Afghan Conference, which went very well in my opinion.) Wow, that feels good. I also didn't hand in preliminary ISU notes but screw it nobody cares.
5. Very good day today, did lots of stuff with both family and friends. :)
1. I got braces! They were way funky at first but its the 5th day I have it on and I'm well adjusted. Now that I can chew almost properly tho, it gets a tad bit irritating to have certain "restrictions" and I can't eat chicken off the bones. I didn't think braces were that weak. Luckily I'm not hooked on gum at all.
2. World Issues ISU is DONE! To my surprise Taylor liked the bulletin board! I hope I get a good mark on it.
3. 2 consecutive days of algeo tests are over, without good results but they're over none the less and I'm glad it's off my shoulders. I must work harder and stop procrastinating.
4. Never before have I complained about Howard's English on here, but yes it is complete garbage. I skipped FOUR DAYS last week. Only one of those days was a legit absence (Afghan Conference, which went very well in my opinion.) Wow, that feels good. I also didn't hand in preliminary ISU notes but screw it nobody cares.
5. Very good day today, did lots of stuff with both family and friends. :)
8.5.03
NEWS: The new 3D ride in Wonderland this year features... SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!
I'm so excited... heeheehee. I like Patrick Star, he's a stupid starfish.
There are two tests tomorrow and I must study, after that I shall research for my World Issues ISU. Lots of hard work coming up, I can't wait until its over. Last night I was trying to write an english ISU journal when I freaked out--I realized that I couldn't think or feel anything anymore. I laid down, closed my eyes and felt exactly the same as when I was staring at the screen. It was horrible!!! Closed eyes feeling like opened eyes, that was the most digusting of all. After a little rest and a little nice msn I recovered though. May that never happen again.
Another NEWS: I'm getting my braces on next Wednesday. Yup. I will never be the same again... ... ... Not scared though, it's okay.
I'm so excited... heeheehee. I like Patrick Star, he's a stupid starfish.
There are two tests tomorrow and I must study, after that I shall research for my World Issues ISU. Lots of hard work coming up, I can't wait until its over. Last night I was trying to write an english ISU journal when I freaked out--I realized that I couldn't think or feel anything anymore. I laid down, closed my eyes and felt exactly the same as when I was staring at the screen. It was horrible!!! Closed eyes feeling like opened eyes, that was the most digusting of all. After a little rest and a little nice msn I recovered though. May that never happen again.
Another NEWS: I'm getting my braces on next Wednesday. Yup. I will never be the same again... ... ... Not scared though, it's okay.
7.5.03
Today I skipped. Yep, SKIPPED. Too bad! What did I do? I bought new shoes! You'll see... They're nice but expensive, you'll see. Went to eat viet, it was good. Now I'm almost off for a nice shower and lots of stuff for my face. Congrats, congrats.
There is quite a bit of work ahead of me and I plan to approach it with a semi-oosh attitude. Wish me luck! I've been working moderately so far. Need to pump it up a little more.
Meanwhile, I'm gonna help Jocelyn with her *somebody*'s prom. Hehe, I'm gonna go drop off the things now. Byebye!
There is quite a bit of work ahead of me and I plan to approach it with a semi-oosh attitude. Wish me luck! I've been working moderately so far. Need to pump it up a little more.
Meanwhile, I'm gonna help Jocelyn with her *somebody*'s prom. Hehe, I'm gonna go drop off the things now. Byebye!
28.4.03
Wee! I got my new cell phone activated! It's good stuff.
Also I finally got my birthday present in the mail today, from my aunt Hidi. It's a cool leather jewelery box.
Now the only thing left I want until I'm perfectly satisfied is an acceptance from either Ryerson or Waterloo... I'm most likely the only who still hasn't gotten any acceptances yet and it's driving me crazy!
Also I finally got my birthday present in the mail today, from my aunt Hidi. It's a cool leather jewelery box.
Now the only thing left I want until I'm perfectly satisfied is an acceptance from either Ryerson or Waterloo... I'm most likely the only who still hasn't gotten any acceptances yet and it's driving me crazy!
22.4.03
Midterm is over, midterm is over!
Marks don't matter anymore, marks don't matter anymore!
I skipped the entire morning to sleep today. No, it's not to be proud of but it's pretty cool that my mom didn't object.
I'm 19 now, it doesn't feel much different. No desperateness or anything. Hey! I lost my first Scratch and Win BINGO lottery last night, haha!
Marks don't matter anymore, marks don't matter anymore!
I skipped the entire morning to sleep today. No, it's not to be proud of but it's pretty cool that my mom didn't object.
I'm 19 now, it doesn't feel much different. No desperateness or anything. Hey! I lost my first Scratch and Win BINGO lottery last night, haha!
18.4.03
:(
I'm going to have braces for my first two or three years in university. That sucks. Everytime I think of actually having braces I'm tempted to back out of the plan. But I can't, that already happened once. Although I don't regret it for various reasons it's too stupid for it to happen again. So much money has already been spent, and so much time considering. Sigh... My only hope now is that they won't look nasty. I'm gonna cry when I first get them... wehhh... Yes, I know there's no point for me to be whining now, since I brought this upon myself. Grr.
I'm going to have braces for my first two or three years in university. That sucks. Everytime I think of actually having braces I'm tempted to back out of the plan. But I can't, that already happened once. Although I don't regret it for various reasons it's too stupid for it to happen again. So much money has already been spent, and so much time considering. Sigh... My only hope now is that they won't look nasty. I'm gonna cry when I first get them... wehhh... Yes, I know there's no point for me to be whining now, since I brought this upon myself. Grr.
17.4.03
Wow, midterms are done, university interviews are done, long long weekend is here, and there's an extended day for waterloo bursaries! Good good.
My birthday is coming up. It just hit me that it's horribly close and that I haven't planned anything yet. Maybe there won't be much of a celebration afterall... We'll just have to see. Timing's pretty tight.. I'd like to use this as an excuse to see some people though. People done exams yet? How about just drinks? Ah posting this won't get anything done, whatever. Haha, I always thought I'd dread the coming of this birthday but it's been okay. Almost like I'm unaware of it. I'm just glad and loosened up that marks don't matter anymore.
WEE!!! MY DAD TOOK ME TO THE CARWASH TODAY!!! THAT WAS THE FUNNEST THING, I WAS SO AMAZED... I HAVEN'T HAD SO MUCH MAGICAL FUN IN A LONG TIME.
~Way Funky~
My birthday is coming up. It just hit me that it's horribly close and that I haven't planned anything yet. Maybe there won't be much of a celebration afterall... We'll just have to see. Timing's pretty tight.. I'd like to use this as an excuse to see some people though. People done exams yet? How about just drinks? Ah posting this won't get anything done, whatever. Haha, I always thought I'd dread the coming of this birthday but it's been okay. Almost like I'm unaware of it. I'm just glad and loosened up that marks don't matter anymore.
WEE!!! MY DAD TOOK ME TO THE CARWASH TODAY!!! THAT WAS THE FUNNEST THING, I WAS SO AMAZED... I HAVEN'T HAD SO MUCH MAGICAL FUN IN A LONG TIME.
~Way Funky~
12.4.03
Here we go again with printing my portfolio presentation. This time it's for Waterloo, and it's my hope that it won't take as long as the others did. There are still things yet to do for preparation. I don't imagine much school work will be done until after tuesday, which is okay because midterm marks are set! I'm anticipating maybe a 92% average.
To Pokium: The only thing for us to do is try our best (which I don't think I have been) and hope for the best. It's easier said than done but worrying only screws you over. Good luck lu...
To Pokium: The only thing for us to do is try our best (which I don't think I have been) and hope for the best. It's easier said than done but worrying only screws you over. Good luck lu...
7.4.03
6.4.03
After hours of trying to understand html... I finally managed changing colours, and here is the product! Maybe changing colours will be my chioce of entertainment over actually writing blog entries? Let's hope not.
One thing though, can anyone tell me how to make the archive pages consistent with this template?
I'm on the third day of my long weekend and it is Saturday. Oui oui! Two snow-days! My luck is back, oosh!
I wish everyone who're studying for uni exams good luck! Also to those waiting for uni acceptances of course. :)
One thing though, can anyone tell me how to make the archive pages consistent with this template?
I'm on the third day of my long weekend and it is Saturday. Oui oui! Two snow-days! My luck is back, oosh!
I wish everyone who're studying for uni exams good luck! Also to those waiting for uni acceptances of course. :)
24.3.03
23.3.03
10.3.03
9.3.03
Lesson learnt over the past two days:
A little effort goes a long way!
Indeed, great things happen if you only bother. I think many of us are tired but more so lazy, to the point that we're not enjoying life anymore because we made it dull. At least this is what happened to me. But since March Break started I've called up, visited and e-mailed a bunch of people. It's gooder. I likee.
You know what else I likee? Chinese music! Ha ha ha, maybe it's only a short phase. Heck I don't even know that many singers and songs, if any at all. I just stumble across some and check them out. Jay Chou is good, I've finally found out for myself.
New stuff is good. Life's been dull... and especially sad to say this at eighteen.
(Suddenly eighteen sounds young.)
Anyway, I wish for everyone a good life. I wish you health, love, happiness and wealth. That's right! A new side of Jo: I Faht Cheen Hon and I'm not ashamed of it... yet.
By the way, this morning I had a dream: terrorists attacked my neighborhood in the middle of the night.
A little effort goes a long way!
Indeed, great things happen if you only bother. I think many of us are tired but more so lazy, to the point that we're not enjoying life anymore because we made it dull. At least this is what happened to me. But since March Break started I've called up, visited and e-mailed a bunch of people. It's gooder. I likee.
You know what else I likee? Chinese music! Ha ha ha, maybe it's only a short phase. Heck I don't even know that many singers and songs, if any at all. I just stumble across some and check them out. Jay Chou is good, I've finally found out for myself.
New stuff is good. Life's been dull... and especially sad to say this at eighteen.
(Suddenly eighteen sounds young.)
Anyway, I wish for everyone a good life. I wish you health, love, happiness and wealth. That's right! A new side of Jo: I Faht Cheen Hon and I'm not ashamed of it... yet.
By the way, this morning I had a dream: terrorists attacked my neighborhood in the middle of the night.
20.2.03
Sometimes I think doctors are there to make you *think* you're getting better.
Because I'm not.
It's been about a week of constant coughing. For two days I experienced difficulty breathing because my sinuses were so clogged up and my throat was too dry. It's horrible. Now I feel like I will throw up if I keep coughing. There's this nasal spray and it's helping a little, plus a throat anesthetic that doesn't do anything but make your throat tingle. Oh well, better not to think of it.
There's been lots of controversy and documentaries on Michael Jackson. Last night, I had a dream with him in it! It was a good dream actually, and now I have much more sympathy for him. I can appreciate him although he is still weird. And I don't want to think about the child molesting thing, he knows his own shit right? None of my business really.
The day before I went for the OCAD portfolio interview. It didn't go perfectly, but it wasn't horrible either. Average to good I suppose. They liked some stuff but questioned some others... Time will tell.
I had a good day today. I just did.
Because I'm not.
It's been about a week of constant coughing. For two days I experienced difficulty breathing because my sinuses were so clogged up and my throat was too dry. It's horrible. Now I feel like I will throw up if I keep coughing. There's this nasal spray and it's helping a little, plus a throat anesthetic that doesn't do anything but make your throat tingle. Oh well, better not to think of it.
There's been lots of controversy and documentaries on Michael Jackson. Last night, I had a dream with him in it! It was a good dream actually, and now I have much more sympathy for him. I can appreciate him although he is still weird. And I don't want to think about the child molesting thing, he knows his own shit right? None of my business really.
The day before I went for the OCAD portfolio interview. It didn't go perfectly, but it wasn't horrible either. Average to good I suppose. They liked some stuff but questioned some others... Time will tell.
I had a good day today. I just did.
5.2.03
I might not need to get braces afterall!
I went for a consultation today with an orthodontist. He says my teeth WON'T fall out when I'm old! Yay!!! But I'm still gonna get x-rays and moulds and get things analyzed to see my best option. I'm favouring the tooth guard right now, to prevent grinding.. cuz my teeth are starting to wear out.
Congratulations to me, congratulations to me!!!
I went for a consultation today with an orthodontist. He says my teeth WON'T fall out when I'm old! Yay!!! But I'm still gonna get x-rays and moulds and get things analyzed to see my best option. I'm favouring the tooth guard right now, to prevent grinding.. cuz my teeth are starting to wear out.
Congratulations to me, congratulations to me!!!
3.2.03
IAN THORPE | 'Thorpedo'
My Hero!
This is Ian Thorpe. Eighteen-year old Aussie Olympic gold medalist in men's 400m freestyle swimming. Cute, (looks a bit like Drew), cute hat (hee hee hee!), 6'5", huge hands and feet and everything. Does anyone remember his expression when he won the race, live on TV? It was very very very early in the morning. Sigh! ¦) Makes me so happy.
Actually, my OOSH originated from that winning race! OHHH YEAH!!
Here are a few more pictures:
º The essence of OOSH
º Waving with his medal in the Australia uniform jacket
º An artsy portrait with the vibe of Madonna's 'Human Nature' video according to Acca
AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE!!! OI OI OI!!!
My Hero!
This is Ian Thorpe. Eighteen-year old Aussie Olympic gold medalist in men's 400m freestyle swimming. Cute, (looks a bit like Drew), cute hat (hee hee hee!), 6'5", huge hands and feet and everything. Does anyone remember his expression when he won the race, live on TV? It was very very very early in the morning. Sigh! ¦) Makes me so happy.
Actually, my OOSH originated from that winning race! OHHH YEAH!!
Here are a few more pictures:
º The essence of OOSH
º Waving with his medal in the Australia uniform jacket
º An artsy portrait with the vibe of Madonna's 'Human Nature' video according to Acca
AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE!!! OI OI OI!!!
31.1.03
It's been a long time!
No, no, of course I didn't follow that plan. Actually it turned out to be nothing like it. Then again, I've been told it was impossible and yep I think they were right. Anyway, the good news is I made it! I achieved my original goal of 90's in all my courses!!! Thought it was impossible. Wow... So who's proud huh?!
Coming up I've got my first portfolio interview, in mid Feb. Should begin preparing for it ASAP. That will begin my hopefully life long routine of presenting portfolios. Hopefully I'm good at it! Wish me luck.
And I want to wish everyone a Happy and Wealthy Chinese New Year! Have a good year everybody!
ROBBIE WILLIAMS | Something Beautiful
You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful that day.
A love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical these days
You analyze everyone you meet
But get no sign, love ain't kind
every night you admit defeat
and cry yourself blind
If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
No, no, of course I didn't follow that plan. Actually it turned out to be nothing like it. Then again, I've been told it was impossible and yep I think they were right. Anyway, the good news is I made it! I achieved my original goal of 90's in all my courses!!! Thought it was impossible. Wow... So who's proud huh?!
Coming up I've got my first portfolio interview, in mid Feb. Should begin preparing for it ASAP. That will begin my hopefully life long routine of presenting portfolios. Hopefully I'm good at it! Wish me luck.
And I want to wish everyone a Happy and Wealthy Chinese New Year! Have a good year everybody!
ROBBIE WILLIAMS | Something Beautiful
You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful that day.
A love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical these days
You analyze everyone you meet
But get no sign, love ain't kind
every night you admit defeat
and cry yourself blind
If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
18.1.03
Schedule:
Thu 23 Jan - Calculus Exam
Mon 27 Jan - Chemistry Exam
Tue 28 Jan - Physics Exam
What does this mean? Starting tomorrow at 6:30AM, I will attempt the most ambitious Oosh project yet. A strict study schedule has been created, where I will study approximately from six (on school days) to twelve hours (weekends) per day, do mild physical exercise before meals, and have at least seven hours of sleep each night. This routine will last for ten days. By the end I hope I'd have lost a few pounds but more importantly done my best in the exams. Wish me luck!
If anyone catches me online for over fifteen minutes please message me a reminder to get back to work. This also applies if you catch yourself on the phone with me. Thank you! Here we go! I plan to have fun, I really do.
I'm becoming increasingly interested in this new Robbie album.)
Thu 23 Jan - Calculus Exam
Mon 27 Jan - Chemistry Exam
Tue 28 Jan - Physics Exam
What does this mean? Starting tomorrow at 6:30AM, I will attempt the most ambitious Oosh project yet. A strict study schedule has been created, where I will study approximately from six (on school days) to twelve hours (weekends) per day, do mild physical exercise before meals, and have at least seven hours of sleep each night. This routine will last for ten days. By the end I hope I'd have lost a few pounds but more importantly done my best in the exams. Wish me luck!
If anyone catches me online for over fifteen minutes please message me a reminder to get back to work. This also applies if you catch yourself on the phone with me. Thank you! Here we go! I plan to have fun, I really do.
I'm becoming increasingly interested in this new Robbie album.)
8.1.03
6.1.03
2.1.03
January 1st, 2003. Happy New Year!
Time really did pass by fast and I'm angered. No, there is no good reason. Time and I just have our issues. (The modern world is too fast paced for my lazy ass self.)
This year has been, well... interesting. Things happened, things didn't happen. All in all it was a good year. I remember one of my favourite episodes of Ally McBeal. John, my favourite character, explains to Ally that if you look back at the end of a year and it makes you cry, then it was a good year worth living. I enjoyed that. Although I can't say all the tears shed during these past 12 months were enjoyable, there's no denying that they were worth it, no matter how insanely stupid the reason for crying in the first place. Ironically, sometimes the eventual 'reward' for your tears would be tears again. Tears of joy, that is. (Oh, sappy shit drives me crazy.)
At the beginning of this year I made some new friends, and got to know some better. By now it seems as though I've known them for ages. Second semester was amazing, maybe the most fun in school I ever had. From second semester all the way til summer was a great time. A lot of stuff was going on, much of which I never expected. Prom and Montreal trip for example. I never even wanted to go to prom, until one day during popcorn sales in the hall Sharon convinced me to sign up. As for Montreal, woah! I've wanted to go away with Acca ever since Grade 10. We planned it all out as a dream and somehow it happened so easily, not to mention the whole crew that came along. Both events were surprisingly wicked. There's so much more yet to be mentioned but it goes without saying that all will be chrished memories.
Happiness aside, the balance theory holds true at all times. Life's just a simple series of ups and downs, the higher you climb the harder you fall. When it was my time to fall, I was lucky to have friends who were right behind me. Even when I didn't approach anyone and preferred to drown in my own misery I knew they were there and I'm thankful.
After a year of turbulance I've come to understand a few more pieces of wisdom passed down to me--from friends to me specifically as well as songs that I intuitively fell in love with before. It's amazing how much I'm still learning from some words that came out of a 16 year-old a few years ago. Songs that I never understood are now starting to make sense and make me think and feel; some of them I'm excited about and others I wish I never understood. 'Universe' by Savage Garden for example, it was sad when I finally found its meaning. Nonetheless it's good to know. The last thing I learned this year was from 'Vanilla Sky' last night at Acca's house; that you should treat people carefully. (Poor Julie aka Cameron Diaz, her monologue right before she died was amazing, the one about consequences)
Like every year, I made wishes--some came true, others did not. Yes, stars have lied to me but they've also granted the best and most beautiful experiences and conversations. So I will continue to wish, and it will remain my secret (although some could take a good guess). As Mel B 'Scary Spice' said, it feels good to have your own secret, like, 'I know something you don't know, HA!'
Time really did pass by fast and I'm angered. No, there is no good reason. Time and I just have our issues. (The modern world is too fast paced for my lazy ass self.)
This year has been, well... interesting. Things happened, things didn't happen. All in all it was a good year. I remember one of my favourite episodes of Ally McBeal. John, my favourite character, explains to Ally that if you look back at the end of a year and it makes you cry, then it was a good year worth living. I enjoyed that. Although I can't say all the tears shed during these past 12 months were enjoyable, there's no denying that they were worth it, no matter how insanely stupid the reason for crying in the first place. Ironically, sometimes the eventual 'reward' for your tears would be tears again. Tears of joy, that is. (Oh, sappy shit drives me crazy.)
At the beginning of this year I made some new friends, and got to know some better. By now it seems as though I've known them for ages. Second semester was amazing, maybe the most fun in school I ever had. From second semester all the way til summer was a great time. A lot of stuff was going on, much of which I never expected. Prom and Montreal trip for example. I never even wanted to go to prom, until one day during popcorn sales in the hall Sharon convinced me to sign up. As for Montreal, woah! I've wanted to go away with Acca ever since Grade 10. We planned it all out as a dream and somehow it happened so easily, not to mention the whole crew that came along. Both events were surprisingly wicked. There's so much more yet to be mentioned but it goes without saying that all will be chrished memories.
Happiness aside, the balance theory holds true at all times. Life's just a simple series of ups and downs, the higher you climb the harder you fall. When it was my time to fall, I was lucky to have friends who were right behind me. Even when I didn't approach anyone and preferred to drown in my own misery I knew they were there and I'm thankful.
After a year of turbulance I've come to understand a few more pieces of wisdom passed down to me--from friends to me specifically as well as songs that I intuitively fell in love with before. It's amazing how much I'm still learning from some words that came out of a 16 year-old a few years ago. Songs that I never understood are now starting to make sense and make me think and feel; some of them I'm excited about and others I wish I never understood. 'Universe' by Savage Garden for example, it was sad when I finally found its meaning. Nonetheless it's good to know. The last thing I learned this year was from 'Vanilla Sky' last night at Acca's house; that you should treat people carefully. (Poor Julie aka Cameron Diaz, her monologue right before she died was amazing, the one about consequences)
Like every year, I made wishes--some came true, others did not. Yes, stars have lied to me but they've also granted the best and most beautiful experiences and conversations. So I will continue to wish, and it will remain my secret (although some could take a good guess). As Mel B 'Scary Spice' said, it feels good to have your own secret, like, 'I know something you don't know, HA!'
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