Here I am at the library again! It's 4th spare and Acca and friends are to my left doing work.

There's this balance theory that I sort of believe in, where good and bad things eventually even out. Well, it's in effect today. The good part was the perr in calculus, and the bad... I just found out that my current Chem average is only 88.8%. That's... undesirable, for an elective. So my plan remains that if I don't get over 90% by midterm, I'll drop the course and concentrate on admin instead. In a way I want to stay in chem but then again there's no telling in how torturous it would be later on. One thing about admin is that it would interfere with my three prerequisites next semester if I let it drag on that long.

Another thing about chem: there's catch up to be done on the electron configuration and periodic trends taught in grade 11 which I dropped out of. Everytime there's a slight challenge like this I'm tempted to drop the course. Heh heh. Whatever, I'll keep running with it for now. At the least, I want to do that multi-coloured fire experiment that's happening soon.

Tomorrow is driving exam! Omg... My prediction is that I won't pass. There are a million things that I do wrong. ie, not covering the brake when approaching unknown or possible danger; not checking mirrors often enough; staring at things for too long; slowing at lane change; not checking blindspot for pedestrians when turning; generally not observant and not careful enough. Parking skills are acceptable. I hope the streets won't be busy tomorrow morning. Ah! I'm so scared!!! And I'll have to carry so much shame if I fail, not to mention all the lecturing and even more distrust from my dad. Ohhh, what to do... what to do...!