It's 4am, I'm hungry, I'm waiting to take a shower, I can't sleep.
Certain events have unfolded like I always knew they would. Dealing with them is much harder than I thought. The worst part is I am beginning to realize that future and potential can be taken away... dreams that I'd hope might come true are evaporated. There are certain things I can no longer afford to wish for. It doesn't matter now how close I have gotten, and I don't want to find out.
I'm also doubting things that seemed so fundamental in my life just a month ago. I'm... simply... not as happy anymore. I don't know what else to say. Hopefully it's just a phase and will disappear on its own, I need it to go away.
And the situation is yet to mature. Soon enough I won't even be able to think about these things.
Adulthood: Welcome! *rapes me in the face*
I am so envious of the lucky people. I thought I was one of them.
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